11:47 PM

So, it is almost a brand new day on my part of the world, I just had a coffee as I was feeling so dragged down with I tense fatigue earlier.

Took my night meds, but upon today's advice of Dr.S, c*t my dose of the pregablin to half of what I usually take.

He had called me for a quick " check in", will call me next week for another before my July 21st full therapy session which I have badly needed for quite awhile now...he books up fast.

He is very devoted to me, his patience is endless.

Most other mental health professionals I have encountered while in crisis are surprised a pyschiatrist will even does therapy these days.

I am blessed.

I have an appointment with my GP next week, the day before my birthday.

Was going to ask if he'd write a letter for my housing that I require a/c for medical reasons, however as I told Dr S.," Thank you for writing that letter! They got all terrified and fixed it finally!"..( even though at times the thing sounds like a jet plane about to take off, but I am grateful it is cool in my place now )

I didn't really accomplish much today-or what is soon to be another yesterday...

I ended up napping for a while this afternoon, still uncharacteristic of me ..

Worrying me.

I feel ok, even good, at this hour.

Except that my sciatica is as it is, most of the time, bothering me.

Oh. Ok, now Friday,4th of July.

Just after midnight and not sleepy...

Little anxious now, meds have yet to hit me.

Maybe will take a hot shower.

Didn't even manage to sort my laundry, maybe I should do that, get it ready to haul to the laundromat at 8 AM.

Yes, shower, be productive since I am wide awake.

I feel...brightened, yet ...scared.

But then, fear is an almost chronic state for me ..

Good morning everyone!❤️

Friday 4th July, 2025

8:49 PM

Good evening from Canada everyone..

Feel I have been very lazy and ill today.

Only got about 3 hours sleep last night, waking up with an early morning myoclonic seizure

Managed to get some laundry together and drag it to the laundromat around 10 ish AM or so when it was still pretty cool out.

By the time my laundry was done though the sun was pummeling me, while the heat rose from the sidewalks

It is only about 3 blocks to the laundromat from my place, but I can barely manage anymore.

I have yet to.put it away.

I don't remember what time I went to lie down,but my phone was ringing, it did occur to me that it was probably my pharmacy's delivery guy with my meds-he shows up between 5 and 6 PM.

I couldn't fully wake up to answer though.

I finally did and then felt so bad as it was around 7 PM.

I was still not awake really when he met me downstairs.

I came back up, made a coffee, and went outside out back with it.

M called, asked if I wanted to stay at his house tonight so that he would be more likely to wake up in time to go to church because I'd be there.

I said no, I am enjoying my air conditioning too much.

I am a little annoyed at him

He has been at me to come to his church with him forever.

I told him a couple weeks ago I am fine going alone if he won't wake up in time but he doesn't want me to.

Annoyed, yeah...irritated.

I think I am just going to give up on the idea of his church that I am still unsure of anyway, and quitely go by myself to another small parish near me on Sunday...

I am still not feeling well.

Putting that laundry away seems like Everest right now.

When I went downstairs saw that J.had posted a notice about this weekend's" Extreme Heat Event ", with daytime temperatures up to 40 C, and where to go to cool off...suggestions are a couple nearby pools, and slash pads.

I feel so bad for my neighbours whom are still without a/c, and grateful Dr.S was kind enough to write that serious letter to my housing demanding I have a/c.

But if they are able to fix mine, what about the rest of their tenants?

Disgusting cheap slum lords.

I feel very, very blessed to have a/c for this coming weekend and the rest of the brutal summer which always lasts straight through September here...

And as well, J.had stuck a letter through my door requesting that I confirm with ner whether I am still interested in having an assessment for homecare.

All I really need is someone to clean once a week, do laundry, grocery shop

The last job I myself held-

I don't need someone to cook for or anything...Just " light housework and laundry and shopping."

I pray I am approved.

With my pain and fatigue I can't manage anymore.

...Just took my night meds, but I can't count on them kicking in.

They didn't last night.

My sleep is so inconsistent and my parasomnias are awful.

I need to charge my phone.

Will take a hot shower now I think.

Try and read something spiritually enlightening.

Good night, everyone.

❤️🕊🪻🐇🦢🐘🦔🦋

Saturday 5 July, 2025

8:07 AM

Good morning from Canada everyone...Woke up about a half an hour ago, thinking it was Sunday and that I'd have to leave for church soon.

Then I realised it is Saturday.

Useless to try and wake M up to go to his church.

There is Vespers this evening at the Ukrainian Church, but it is, as I mentioned, going up.to 40 C today, andit will take me about an hour to get there.

Still, I am so longing to experience the beauty and glory of that 100 year old Orthodox Cathedral...

I put my a/c on already as it is warming up fast in my 4th floor apartment.

I do not feel rested.

More parasomnias just before waking.

What's wrong with me?

This past year I have been in near constant crisis mode, and I still feel " unstable"...

I really think it is the Church that will ground me, direct me, enrich me, soothe me, give me back my " Gift of tears" I so often am blessed with during prayer.

Something is just so...lacking.

I long for a holy and meaningful and pious life, striving ever for righteousness...

And for a long time I have been not living the way The Lord is trying to reveal to me.

I read about the lives of the Saints, and wistfully long that I too could renounce the world, live in a monastery someplace remote, set apart, for a life of unceasing prayer and quiet contemplation...

But everyday I wake up, struggling.

I despise this city.

I ended up here in 06 with an ab*sive man...

Had I been stronger., knowing what I know now, would never have moved here from the far better city where I lived fir 11 years ( in many ways) than this one.

And now I am stuck here.

...Oh I need more SLEEP.

I am kind of shakey so had something small to eat.

I really need to tidy, clean, organise stuff in here.

But feel very unwell at this hour, coffee finished now...

I will have a look around the forum now.

I so want to support you all.

And from the heart, in this I am sincere.

Love and Peace and Healing to you all.

❤️🕊❤️

Sunday 6 July, 2025

7:55 PM

Good morning from Canada everyone...

No idea what time I fell asleep last night.

And I woke up, still not feeling rested around an hour or so ago.

Had my coffee, considered going to church but would have had to rush, and even at this early morning hour you can feel the heat and humidity heavy in the ( lack of) air, and it may as well be noon for how bright that sun is.

So, even though the ancient thing is making a lot of noise and shaking, at least, praise God I have a/c.

I didn't feel well at all all day yesterday ( something I think I will post about elsewhere on the forum), was so exhausted I just laid in bed until M.called, I didn't even sleep, butI was just so exhausted.

That once, at just 11 years old,( being odered to by my ballet teacher) I was capable of doing 100 sit ups in a studio with black tarry floors, in 100 degreee heat, and now I can barely walk down the street.

I think Dr S said he would call me this wwk but if course cant remember what day.

Really need to get one of those fridge magnets where I can write stuff down.

I am anxious and don't know why.

Couldn't be the caffeine.

It rained ever briefly last night when I was out with M , feeling awful.

It didn't cool the air down at all though.

In fact it made the humidity far worse.

i so wish for a wonderful thunderstorm.

I feel trapped in here.

J.suppsed to " touch base" with me this week.

At any rate do need to give her my consent to go ahead with the homecare evaluation.

I am tempted to buy myself some fresh c*t flowers today.

The Churches are always full of flowers.

My head is jumping from idea to idea and yet I remain in a state of paralysis.

Why do I have to wake up.so early?

Ok.

I will have a look around the forum now.

I need another coffee.

I need to eat.

I need to do a lot of things.

Love and Peace and Healing to you all.

❤️🕊❤️

When is your birthday? @Autumn75

4:01 PM

Once again I must ask," Where didthe day go?"

Another absolutely slothful day, too exhausted to move, let alone take care of the simplest of house hold chores.

I smoked the last two cigarettes in the pack earlier I only bought yesterday.

How quickly addictive they are!

Anyway, while it ( fleetingly) eases my stress and anxiety, and I do enjoy a smoke with a black coffee again after over a decade having quit a pack and a half a day addiction, I decided I would ride out the cravings that have again, so quickly taken hold of me.

I am disgusted by the taste, the smell, and my poor asthmatic lungs!!!

How much more stupid could I be?

I have been coughing and having trouble breathing already, and beusdes-that -at 20 bucks a pack on the amount t of cash I have to live on, prettystupid too to waste my money on those things.

I have to admit really want one right now, but not only a matter of health a d money, but simply goesagainst my values.

No judgement from this ex smoker if you are struggling with a nicotine addiction...I used to smoke even when i was wheezing with bronchitis.

Anyway, this is the goal-to not run out and recklessly buy another pack.

Back to this long day, endlessly long day of interia, lying in bed, unable to sleep,OCD assailing me with looping intrusive thoughts, and I was. . .stuck.

I finally got up and stood under a hot shower.

Made a coffee.

And...couldn't take how horrid I am feeling anymore and took my night meds-

I need to rest.

Even if that means being up all night as I often used to be.

I am so anxious right now I can't stand it.

Meds have not kicked in.

Please God let me SLEEP!!!

M asked me if I wanted to go to church tomorrow as it is the feast day of the conception of St.Johm the Baptist.

He told me it would be the perfectday to come, and less people as is a workday.

Still, unsure though.

I feel like I have a lot on my plate, so to speak.

And without the church, a spiritual father anda warm church community as I have mentioned, ny most pressing need right now, and has been for awhile...

I need to eat.

Just something small, but all I can manage.

Not much in the house as usual, and seriously considering ordering my next bunch of groceries, but then again...can't Imagine using the stove or certainly not oven in this heatt-even WITH a/c

Thinking of you all..

Love and Peace and Healing to you all.

❤️🕊❤️

10 minutes ago, Lavender said:

When is your birthday? @Autumn75

Oh. It it the 11th..

Monday, 7 July 2025

10:42 AM

I slept and slept and slept...

Woke up whining to myself.As in my 20s and 30s first impulse was to go.go.outside And have a coffee and a cigarette.

But oh.

I had none.

I am so ashamed as I made such a grandiose vow to stop, but I am already addicted to the horrible things, and I was so anxious when I woke up...so now, after buying, yes, another toxic pack, and an equally toxic coke zero, here I sit in a rare shadey place on a bench on my street, poisoning myself...

I vaguely recall waking up...what time?

I took my morning meds and no.memoryy of having gone back to bed.

I am shakey and feel like crying and don't know why-

I wish it was today Dr.S was going to be calling me...bjt think it is on Thursday.

He knows how hard a time I am having ( as always) with this upcoming birthday.

I ought to post on other boards here, rather than to continue with this self indulgent journal entry..

So much to say...no way of verbalising anything, but I write better than I speak...

Or perhaps not-

No voice.

I still feel physically unwell, but all that deep dreamless sleep definitely helped...

I will close now...

Try to.post elsewhere here...

Thank you for reading if you have.

Love and Peace and Healing to you all.

❤️🕊❤️

Tuesday, 8 July, 2025

6:50 AM

Good morning from Canada everyone ...

I slept again forhours and hours, deeply, blessedly dreamlessly, woke just before 3 AM-the perfect time for prayer.

And no, did not rush down the stairs outside to coughon a horrible tasting cigarette-I actually poured dish soap over them last night, threw them in the trash...prayed to St.Ephraim, the Orthodox patron Saint of addiction last night, and this morning.

I prayed, but not as deeply as I would have liked to, as far as my own, scattered personal prayers...

But pleased I awoke just before3 AM, andwas able to pray a bit...

I did find myself hungry after a little while, had two apples ( all I had in the house ) then at just after 5 AM found myself going to my old church, had a black coffee, and a full breakfast ( minus the meat )..

Left, and felt better...even ok to GOOD...

But now that I am " home" anxiety and nicotine cravings are starting to grip me...

I will NOT smoke again though.

Already exacerabating my asthma, giving me quite an awful bronchial cough, having to use my ventolin more often...not worth it.

For so, so many reasons.

I really need another coffee right now.

I am suddenly very tired again, although I awoke feeling quite rested thanks be to God.

I am feeling trapped in this place again, smothered...

I wish I could sleep through this endless summer day...

The entire summer actually...

Love and Peace and Healing to you all.

❤️🕊❤️

Wednesday 9 July, 2025

5:57 AM

Good morning from Canada everyone...🇨🇦

I just woke up a little while ago.

Made a coffee, cayenne pepper and lemon water.

Not really hungry right now, although that shouldn't matter, as they taught in treatment, " Eat every 4 hours evenif you aren't hungry."

Why is this SO HARD?

Anxiety is starting to crush my chest, but I woke up to a much tidier HOME,although there is still much to do, still need help...unless I keep pushing myself past my limits.

I went for a walk yesterday!

When ny sciatica was intensely bad I walked around the block.

It did make my body feel looser, pain dissipated.

M was supposed to have me brought me food over and a greens supplement, fish oil, B12.m but I fell asleep...

Really need B6...last month? I guess it was...ordered B complex off amazon as well as a beautiful icon of The Mother of God , and my package was stolen...

And now of course, my entry code does not work ..slum lords

Anyway, fell asleep beforeM. could come over, saw a text from him when I woke up that he had made me salad, and has olive oil for me.

Olive oil is very pricey these days so I am very grateful to him.

Why does he love me?

Why does he take care of me?

...I did not buy another pack of cigarettes yesterday!

Am going to keep praying to St.Ephraim though, as right now, with anxiety just...piercing me right to my core, I really really want one...however even already my poor lungs seem to have e recovered.

I have my GP tomorrow.

He would not be thrilled if I told him I started smoking again.

...Mood starting to dip.

I guess " they" are right-with my dx of BPD, my emotions can go from neutral to high to dangerously low in...minutes.

I hope it is today Dr.S. is supposed to call me.

But I still really want to go to the " dollar" store...

Maybe right at 9 when they open it will be mostly empty.

I make all these plans....

Anxiety robs me of a normal life.

I have until Friday to give J.my consent to be interviewed for homecare or whatever it is...letter said something about," your goals"...sounds very much like case management which I will NEVER agree to again.

But...perhaps the " wise mind" thing to do.is just ASK J.what kind of service it actually is...

Well...enough from me here, gonna take a look around the forum now.

Love and Peace and Healing to you all.

❤️🕊❤️

Friday, 11 July, 2025

1:02 AM

I slept and slept and slept for hours, having not even taken my night meds.

Strange dreams.

Unable to wake up.

Finally did, couldn't believe it was only around after midnight and I am...50 years old now.

I took my night meds.

Sipping turmeric and and black pepper and lemon water.

I don't know why I was/ am so tired.

I have a goal for today and that is to get my yoga mat out and do some sciatica exercises, and try and go for a walk.

My doctor was on my case about being more active.

I am not overweight or anything, he just believes being more active will alleviate some of my pain, aa well as lift mood.

He asked of I swim and I told him I dint know how.

M.said he'd take me to the pool and show me how to exercise in the shallow end.

He ground me some flax seeds yesterday which I will put in smoothies.

I just need soy milk and frozen fruit.

It is still the Apostle's Fast today. It ends tomorrow, so M.said dhe'd have to take a rain cheque on celebrating my birthday.

I half don't care, half feel blue over it.

Have not picked up another expensive pack of smokes since I prayed to.St.Ephraim.

I had a craving yesterday but was able to ride it out.

I am still very tired.

I have iced coffee in the fridge that M made me but I wish he hadn't sweetness it with honey.

I really don't like anything in my coffee, apart from the occasional pricey cafe au lait I get once in awhile up the street which reminds me of being in Quebec, but other than that I am strictly a black coffee girl.

For me it is undrinkable sweetened

I really should have gone to the food bank this week.

I don'tremember why I didnt go.

Anxious right now, unsure why.

Allergies bothering me.

Should really take my generic reactine.

Grass pollen is supposed to be high.

I ha e my a/c on, only one window opened a crack.

But nose is running, eyes itchy, chest tight.

My feet have been hurting g since yesterday now.

My doctor threwmore Tylenol for arthritis samples at ne which I do not intend to take.

He gave me some months ago, not only doesn'tit work, it is highly toxic for the liver.

I will find relief through excersise and health.

.. Just washed my face with olive oil soap, brushed my teeth, took a reactine.

Wide awake, though feeling so drained.

I boughlike over 100 dollars worth of stuff at the " dollar " store the other day, drainingmy poor bank account.

But really it was all stuff I needed.

I bought a lot of new tupperware, so.w storage boxes, c*tlery, small recycling box, nice granite c*tying board, I dunno what else.

It added up quickly, but would have been more pricey online or even at Walmart.

I need a coffee right now.

But can't remember if I bought any more.

Maybe I will eat breakfast at my old church h ths morning, thank God I have quite a bit of cash left on my transit card.

I am very, very anxious now.

Maybe I should stop thinking about money,( or lack thereof)...

The 21st and my first real session with Dr.S in ages can't come soon enough.

At the moment unsure what to focus on...

I will now likely pro ably be looking obsessively at anti aging natural stuff online, sciatica exercises, Maybe down load the " Calm" app of it isstill free.

I need to stop writing here, saying nothing much of interest as usual.

But I appreciate the outlet, even if nobody reads this.

And, thank you fir readingif you have.

Love and Peace and Healing to you all.❤️🕊❤️

8:41 PM

M cane by, did a lot of my laundry.

A d it is a very hot day, he happily lugged it to the laundromat helped me fold it what guy does rhst??

I am in a lot of pain today.

The sciatica of course.

Entire lower half of my body in agony.

My goals?

Well, didn't drag out my yoga mat, but did go for a walk with my cane, long way round to the store, had to stop and rest.

M.asked if I wanted to go to get a coffee, but wasn't up to it.

I feel guilty and ashamed right now.

Anyway,about time to pray my night time prayers.

Still have yet to rekindle my old devoted and diligent habit of prayer.

And as tired as I am, think it best I try right now.

Love and Peace and Healing to you all.

❤️🕊❤️

Saturday 12 July 2025

9:19 AM

I wish I was still asleep.

The sun is already high in the sky, or so it would seem...after all it's not close to noon yet.

I really need to stretch and then go for a walk, stretch some more.

But I don't want to go out into the sun and the heat.

I am very out of shape though and it's getting me down.

My back and legs really hurt .

I think I will slather on the sunscreen now, do some resistance exercises, some sciatica exercises, and go for a walk.

Don't feel like it at all but also hate being in pain, as well as feeling ill at ease in my own body..

Love and Peace and Healing to you all.

❤️🕊❤️

Monday 14 July 2025

9:11 AM

Good morning from Canada everyone..

I must have fallen asleep around 12:30 ish AM?

I woke up to my 2 AM alarm, went back to sleep, as usual woke up to my own voice whining that I didn't want to get up.

Can't recall any nightmares or even just bizarre dreams full of indecipherable meaning, but I don't feel rested.

No more coffee filters or paper towels so couldn't make a coffee, so here I am with a McEvil black iced coffee, sitting beneath my old beloved maple tree.

The pollen count must be high as my allergies are raging.

I feel shakey and of course my sciatica is bad this morning.

I spent the entire weekend cleaning which really put a strain on my body but at least my bathroom looks better and my kitchen.

Also finally organised a couple closets.

I feel....oh I FEEL I FEEL I FEEL...

Like I need to weep, great cathartic tears.

I feel alone right now, and wish I could just go back to sleep.

A few months ago I was regularly popping my night meds in the afternoon, sleeping until I would awaken confused but a lot more at peace in the silence of the night...

Tempting to start doing that again, but trying my best to be "compliant " as Dr.S kept saying he wanted to see what my meds are doing or aren't doing once I started taking them as prescribed.

The days are endless though, and I still find summertime to be rough on my mood.

I want to stop the pregablin ( with the guidance of Dr.S of course, would never stop on my own, this drug I have read has horrible withdrawal effects) as it is doing zero for my chronic pain and the somnulance is too heavy to try and live with, even though Dr.S 'perspective is that "You seem a lot calmer." ,and,"You're sleeping better."....

I guess but how could HE function on it?

The last time I talked to him he told me he has patients for whom the somnulance dissipates after awhile....

But I don't want to take it anymore.

Dr.S is supposed to call me this week but of course I can't remember what day-hoping it's today.

Not that he'll have a ton of time.

At least next week I have a full therapy session with him.

It's been so long though andI won't even know where to begin with him, what to focus on...I know I have a lot of questions for him.

I am not sure why I feel so sad right now...

I have been up for awhile and should eat-I don't feel like it though.

I am just so tired.

My meds are being delivered this evening, my boyfriend told me yesterday he would come do my laundry again which is so good of him.

I really can't manage well the long walk to.the laundromat lugging a heavy bag of laundry...

Finished my coffee.

Could use another one.

Could do with a single female friend too...

I still need to find a church and a new spirtual father.

My boyfriend really wants me to come to his church with him, but I was too sick on the weekend.

He said it was packed anyway.

I would not have been comfortable.

My social anxiety borders on social phobia, and the small talk question,"So what do you do?" forever looms...

I haven't been able to work in years.

In fact, my longest hospitalisation when I turned 26, I had passes to continue going out to my job everyday until my pyschiatrist told me I needed to stop working.

Dr.S has never pushed me to try and go back to work.

. .Anyway, I need to go to the store.

I need to take my allergy medication.

I need to do a lot of things.

Thank you for reading if you have...

Love and Peace and Healing to you all.

❤️🕊❤️

Tuesday 15 July, 2025

8:24 AM

Good morning from Canada everyone...

Well, it took ages for my night meds to kick in last night.

Finally started getting sleepy around 10 ish PM last night, sitting on my street in the dark on a bench, went home, not sure now what time I fell asleep.

Slept solidly through the night.

Again, no nightmares or bewildering dreams, at least that Ican recall, thanks be to God.

Anyway, woke up, still have a migraine, a d if it lasts two more days will have to go to emerg I guess.

A long time since I have had to go to emerg for a migraine not responding to otc's...

I took my morning meds about an hour ago, yet am very anxious and nkt sure whether today is when Dr.S is supposed to call me...at any rate right at 9 will call his office, ask him to please call me back.

His receptionist always immediately sends the message to Dr.S through their fancy computer system.

Will feel ridiculous if it is indeed today he js calling for a " check in" call.. I don't like these check in calls.

I have to ramble on crazily trying to fit all my "issues" and " updates" in the 10 minutes he usually has between patients...

He will interrupt me with,"Unfortunately I do have to run, but we have a session next week.. "

I shouldn't complain.

He is devoted to me.

Has vowed never to " fire" me, even when I am being difficult..

Need to ask him if he believes that I have made any progress at all in the past over a decade I have been his patient..

I mean, this past year I have been chronically in crisis.

In and out of hospital, beibg reckless, maladaptive coping mechanisms, seeking help they always promise, and has never really " stabalized" me...

I assure you all, I am not currently in crisis, but this...bleak state of stagnation remains.

...I was supposed to have gone to my boyfriend's church this morning, for the feast day of the discovery of The Mother of God's robes in Jerusalem.

I told him last night I " am a mess, really need a church."...

So, I got dressed, but hadn't put my hair up yet, Called M., he answered and asked if I wanted him to pick me up...

But of course, despite my prayers last night, this sense that this was/is right, gave way to my usual avoidance of my terror of the unknown...

I told him I still gave the remnants of my migraine, and that if it doesn't get any better will have to go to emerg for a shot...or, whatever that'd give me.

He was understanding, but called me back a couple minutes later urging me to ccome with him, that there wouldn't be many people this morning, that," Maybe you'll feel better if you come."

I then felt as though my words were stuttered. Of course was extremely apologetic, worried he was mad-he didn'tseem to be, but he may very well lecture me later.

I think I might email a priest from a parish I have visted...the Sunday I went the priest ended up not being there, away in Alaska for the feast day of a particular Saint...I was warmly welcomed and I smiled at the mothers with their infants who knew just how to venerate the icons...bit as there was no priest it was not a Liturgy.

I stayed for the vegetarian food, ( it was a fasting period), but ate nervously alone while others gathered in a closed circle right behind me, and I quickly left feeling so alone and confused...

And confusion is all I have felt since leaving my old church, so confused I have even been back a couple times, singing with the joy of the spirit, going g there one day to eat as I had no food nor cash...

I emailed my old priest and he was willing to make time to have a coffee with me and talk, but we never did, I kept missing g him...rhe day I went fjr lunch one woman there whom seems to hate me turned and gave me such a dirty look...and I felt alone again, isolated in my heartfelt desire to pray, to fo what fjr the pastnearly 5 years with my ED, I have refused to do-to eat with the community...

Now, my priest is away for two months, the Sunday service is not a full Liturgy, bjt the deacon will preside o er the Sunday services.

He is allowed to give Holy Communion which I need desperately...

Desperately...didn't I also already use that word on this entry?

Desperation.

I may be safe right now, and nkt in crisis, but I feel overwhelmed by my head that won't stop going from, thought yo thought to thought, unable to make this vital spiritual decision..

I just ought to pray on it, but my prayers are scattered, undisciplined, I have lost my habit of prayer...

I feel shakey now, should eat...should eat, should eat, hafta eat...

Well, I have rambled in far too much here, forgive me.

Need to charge my phone, but first call Dr.S' office beg to talk to him...

So with that I say, thank you fjr readingyou have and Love and Peace and Healing to you all.

❤️🕊❤️