Posted June 13Jun 13 Hello, I am new here, and Canadian so hope ok to join you? I am on the cusp of ( next month!!!) turning a half a century old and am having a hard time facing this " milestone " birthday... I would have to say that although North America does not yet recognise CPTSD in the DSM V, my own pyschiatrist whom is also my therapist does not dispute that the dx fits me as even he told me it is entirely possible my trauma began as early as when my mum was carrying me, that it is entirely possible that before I was even born had begun to have neurological changes in my brain.. So anyway, one of my myriad of ife long dxs is CPTSD. Along with this, MDD recurrent, refractory OCD, GAD, social anxiey disorder, closely on the edge of social phobia, what else...um...this is is one I murmur when encountering a new mental health professional for well founded fear that I will be stigmatised, and invetibly be treated like a criminal...uh....BPD... As well, and I know I ought not to self diagnose, but as well the dx of an ASD really resonates with me, it would explain a lot about my childhood... And oh, how could I forget, I have suffered from anorexia b/,p subtype, since age 11, which I am fighting like mad, weight restored now,but that horrid ED " voice" in my head is now constantly berating me for eating and gaining weight... I think that's it for my dxs although as far as my physical health, well, I have epilepsy asthma, osteopenia ( thank you ED), an L5 herniated disc which hae caused bilateral excruciating and debilitating sciatic pain ( this past year, although my chronic pain has me whining all the time, I am grateful for it as it has stirred up in my heart a great empathy for people suffering from all manner of chronic pain...) What else about me? I haven't worked for a long time, and feel guilty and ashamed I have been on disability for so long... I love to write, especially poetry and prose poetry, but sadly of late depression, and my love of reading has also been stolen from me because of depression .. I love animals, I miss my beloved kitty Sam who I painfully had to let go 4 years ago now. I have a lot of photos of him on my fridge, I miss sharing my life with a precious animal, but. I can't.. For various reasons. I have longed for a trained pyschiatric service dog, and my pyschiatrist told me he would be happy to write a letter for me, but long waiting lists for everything here in Canada, and don't know if the government will pay for a psych service dog but worth looking into again. ?? Sorry for the long winded intro, have attempted to post an intro the day I joined, but this increase in my pregablin has made me so drowsy since it was recently titrated,but this morning I feel a little better, at least not so out of it, unable to type on this stupid little phone ( lap top stopped wanting to work and cannot afford a new one right now) Anyway, so blessed to have found a new MH forum, I wish to not only receive support, but to give support to others... Anyway, thank you for reading if you have, and again, hope not intruding being Canadian, ( Although if it helps, my grandparents on my mum's side, as well as my mum were born in England, so if I ever could manage it, I am allowed dual citizenship..) Ok, forgive me, have rambled on enough... Looking forward to exploring the forum and getting to know all of you... * If ok to be here!
June 13Jun 13 5 hours ago, Autumn75 said: Hello, I am new here, and Canadian so hope ok to join you? I am on the cusp of ( next month!!!) turning a half a century old and am having a hard time facing this " milestone " birthday... I would have to say that although North America does not yet recognise CPTSD in the DSM V, my own pyschiatrist whom is also my therapist does not dispute that the dx fits me as even he told me it is entirely possible my trauma began as early as when my mum was carrying me, that it is entirely possible that before I was even born had begun to have neurological changes in my brain.. So anyway, one of my myriad of ife long dxs is CPTSD. Along with this, MDD recurrent, refractory OCD, GAD, social anxiey disorder, closely on the edge of social phobia, what else...um...this is is one I murmur when encountering a new mental health professional for well founded fear that I will be stigmatised, and invetibly be treated like a criminal...uh....BPD... As well, and I know I ought not to self diagnose, but as well the dx of an ASD really resonates with me, it would explain a lot about my childhood... And oh, how could I forget, I have suffered from anorexia b/,p subtype, since age 11, which I am fighting like mad, weight restored now,but that horrid ED " voice" in my head is now constantly berating me for eating and gaining weight... I think that's it for my dxs although as far as my physical health, well, I have epilepsy asthma, osteopenia ( thank you ED), an L5 herniated disc which hae caused bilateral excruciating and debilitating sciatic pain ( this past year, although my chronic pain has me whining all the time, I am grateful for it as it has stirred up in my heart a great empathy for people suffering from all manner of chronic pain...) What else about me? I haven't worked for a long time, and feel guilty and ashamed I have been on disability for so long... I love to write, especially poetry and prose poetry, but sadly of late depression, and my love of reading has also been stolen from me because of depression .. I love animals, I miss my beloved kitty Sam who I painfully had to let go 4 years ago now. I have a lot of photos of him on my fridge, I miss sharing my life with a precious animal, but. I can't.. For various reasons. I have longed for a trained pyschiatric service dog, and my pyschiatrist told me he would be happy to write a letter for me, but long waiting lists for everything here in Canada, and don't know if the government will pay for a psych service dog but worth looking into again. ?? Sorry for the long winded intro, have attempted to post an intro the day I joined, but this increase in my pregablin has made me so drowsy since it was recently titrated,but this morning I feel a little better, at least not so out of it, unable to type on this stupid little phone ( lap top stopped wanting to work and cannot afford a new one right now) Anyway, so blessed to have found a new MH forum, I wish to not only receive support, but to give support to others... Anyway, thank you for reading if you have, and again, hope not intruding being Canadian, ( Although if it helps, my grandparents on my mum's side, as well as my mum were born in England, so if I ever could manage it, I am allowed dual citizenship..) Ok, forgive me, have rambled on enough... Looking forward to exploring the forum and getting to know all of you... * If ok to be here! Hi there, thank you so much for sharing your story so openly. You are absolutely welcome here, and being Canadian is no issue at all, kindness and understanding know no borders. Turning fifty can definitely stir up a lot of emotions, especially when you're carrying so much history and pain. The depth of what you've been through is incredibly real, and it's clear you're fighting hard every day. It's so important to have a place where that fight is seen and supported. If you're looking for a gentle, non-judgmental space to talk more, you're very welcome here. This is a space made for people like you, those who carry a lot but still show up with care and empathy. You're not alone. Looking forward to seeing you around and hearing more of your poetry if you're ever up to sharing it. the forum hasn't long started so it is rather quiet around here. hopefully in time we grow 🙂 Sending warmth and strength your way
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